Overweight!!

I lost two pounds this week, putting me at 181. For my height, well my height rounded down to 5'6" since I am around 5'6" and 3/4 of an inch. The next two weeks will be rough, since I gained a total of three pounds last month during those slow metabolism weeks. But I hope to maintain my overweight status. Yes, I probably still look obese, but by the numbers I am overweight. Twenty six pounds overweight, to be exact. After being 100 pounds overweight for so long, that is really cool. It wasn't until well into this journey that I discovered I was never actually morbidly obese. I know at least one of my doctor's had referred to me as morbidly obese, but by the charts I was always at least 20 pounds away from that. And I know I look like I weigh more than I do, since I have no legs, no butt, a slight shortage in the boob area, and even my arms are not that big for my weight. But to be overweight and not obese is very motivating! And, I am one pound from a 75 pound loss!

Now I have to wrap my head around this. I am so close to the 170's. I don't even remember being in the 170's. It had to be somewhere in my senior year of high school. I still always forget that I don't have to go to the Woman's department. And I keep picking up larger sizes of clothing, and being surprised when they are too big. I am going to have to buy some fall clothes soon. I think I am still in woman's sizes in jeans, but not tops. I may get into a misses 16, but I will find out when I go looking for jeans. My proportions still haven't evened out. Though I have lost in the middle, I have also lost in my legs. Thank God skinny jeans are back!

So, let's hope I don't have to announce in the next week or two that I am obese again. May I never be back there again!!

My how things have changed!

Do not get me wrong, I still have my moments, like when I start eating M&M's and don't want to stop. But, most of the time my approach to food, especially sweets, is totally different than before WW. I really like to bake, but that leaves us with lots of leftovers. So I try to give some away to the neighbors and/or my parents. We hosted a meeting at our house, and I made cupcakes. I gave a lot of those away, but I had left over frosting. Yummy, homemade buttercream frosting. The other night I frosted a bunch of graham crackers and put them in the fridge. I had one too, for three points. Which I felt guilty about. Then I had another one last night. Now mind you, before I would have finished off half the plate before they ever made it to the fridge. So today we had a playdate over here. Everyone brought their own lunch, and as they were finishing I went in to get some animal cookies for the kids. Then I remembered the frosted graham crackers. I brought the plate out, and they were all gone in 15 minutes. And I wasn't even tempted to have one! Now, my three year old had two. But she hardly eats, so I am excited when she eats much of anything. And I am excited that food is no longer such an issue for me. Woo hoo!

Blogging 101

I have been terrible about blogging! And I do it much more often on this one than my other one! I see I have gotten into a pattern of just blogging on weigh in day. I will try to be better!

First things first. Today's weight: 183. So down 4 pounds. This is the week I always have a good loss. I didn't use as many weeklies as I usually use this week. This is the one week my metabolism is fast. I just need to work on not gaining. I am one pound from being overweight and not obese!!

So I went to the doctor, and it looks like I have something called Patella sublexion in my knee. I am supposed to start physical therapy next week, but I don't know how I am going to fit that in. Plus it is a $20 copay for each visit and the doctor ordered 10. I will probably go a couple times, but I don't see going all ten times. This has really put a crimp in my exercise routine.

There is so much going on right now. Sophie is starting preschool in two weeks. I have a couple of things coming up. I am involved in helping with the fall festival at church, which is in two and a half weeks. The same week Sophie starts school and that I am supposed to host Bunco at my house. Meanwhile, I am trying hard to find a job. I have an interview tomorrow. Last night I stayed up until midnight redoing my resume. I have known that it was way too wordy, so I trimmed it way down. I really hate feeling like I can't plan anything because I don't know when I will get a job. When I am not hearing anything, I freak out about money. Then when I get an interview I freak out about going back to work. Ugh. I am going to try and relax and do better at this interview than the last one.

How the heck do you spell plateau?

In case you haven't noticed, I have my weigh in's listed to the right of this blog. I didn't go all the way back, but I put my starting weight from 10/20 and then I have been updating it since I started the blog. Well, today I had a two pound gain. On top of a one pound gain last week. So I am at 187. If you look at my weigh in's, you will see I am at the same weight I was 6 weeks ago! So I am not staying the same every week, I am now going up and down. But essentially I am stuck in the mid 180's. Ugh.

Yes, I did use more weeklies than usual. And I probably shouldn't have used any, because I know that is a week that my metabolism is slow. But with Sophie's birthday and the retreat, that wasn't realistic. So I accept the gain and hope to lose next week!

I want to eat!!

I really want to eat right now. Yes, I have four daily points left, which will buy me a Skinny Cow ice cream cone and a small bag of popcorn. But, I want to eat without worrying about points for once. I won't, but I want to!

Tuesday check in.

I gained one pound this week, so back up to 185. This is the same week that I had a gain last month. I actually expected a bigger gain, because my feet have been very swollen. I did something to my knee, but I am hoping it will go away on it's own. I don't have the time or inclination to go to the doctor. Especially since they will say "go home, ice it, do exercises and take ibprofin(allergic)".

Sophie turned three today! We have been celebrating for a week, so I have not been eating my normal stuff. I haven't gone crazy or anything, but I'm sure too much sodium is part of the issue with the swelling. Should be semi back to normal tomorrow, except we still have lot's of goodies in the house, including half a cake and some cupcakes.

This is a very busy week. Tomorrow is the first day in a long time that I plan to stay home. I have some things I must do, and bunco in the evening, but we can have a lazy morning. I am so tired right now, but I need to apply for at least one job. I am getting to panic mode on the job front. At least I am at the point now that I really need a job and that should override all of my aprehension when it comes to interviews. I made a few mistakes on the last one, due to nerves and my overall disdain over the thought of going to work. But my down and dirty savings figure is staring me in the face, so I must get a job. The fact that Sophie will soon start preschool makes it much easier. She is growing up so fast. Where have those three years gone?!

Birthday weekend

It is not my birthday weekend, but rather a much more important birthday weekend. My miracle baby is going to be three on Tuesday! Since my sister was here until yesterday morning, we started the celebrating extra early. We had a birthday dinner out on Thursday for Sophie and her auntie Gina, who's bday is five days after Sophie. Grandma made a yummy birthday cake, with leftovers for Friday. Friday we got take out from Taco Del Mar, since they don't have those in Denver. I did good on that, getting the small burrito and making substitutions. Plus, I skipped the cake on Friday. Yesterday it rained, so we left it up to Sophie if she wanted daddy's homemade pizza or a picnic on the floor, and of course she wanted a picnic. Somehow she heard me whisper the McDonald's possibility to Chet, so that is what she wanted. I got a small burger and fries, which isn't too bad points wise. Then I made cookies for a picnic that we were suppose to go to today. I had two of those. While I still have 20.5 weeklies left, the last few days I have done terrible on the good health guidelines, and had lots of sodium. My face swelled up Friday night, and last night my feet did. I need to drink lots of water and do pretty good today and tomorrow, or I will for sure have a gain. Tomorrow we are having an ice cream social to celebrate Sophie's birthday with her friends. I will have to avoid the ice cream. I am making mini cupcakes for the party, too. Then Tuesday is her actual birthday. Thank God that is weigh in day, since I am baking a cake and we are planning to take her to the Rainforest Cafe for dinner!

Right now I am pretty overwhelmed with life, and am trying not to let that effect my eating. Normally it would. On top of that, I am in a piss poor mood today. Those of you that read my other blog may recall my list of things that I just "don't get". To add to that, I don't get why people in Seattle cancel long made plans at the hint of a little rain. I wanted to have Sophie's party today, but a group I belong to had a picnic planned for today. There was never any hint it may be canceled due to rain. We had a covered shelter reserved. I started making my stuff last night, and we told Sophie we were going to a real picnic today. This morning I get an email that it is canceled. No explanation, so I must assume it was canceled due to the threat of a few raindrops. BAER. Really, am I the only one that still planned to go? Very disappointing. So I guess Sophie, Chet and I will have our own picnic. And next year I will not make her birthday plans around other peoples plans.

It's that day again!

I lost a pound this week, yay! Just two more to be "overweight" on the charts. The next couple weeks will be tough. Sophie's birthday is one week from today, and then I am going on a weekend retreat the weekend after. SO lots of yummy food the next couple of weeks. On the plus side, I am very busy, so that gives me less time to munch. I have been doing pretty good at avoiding really pointy food. Yesterday I actually packed one of my two point sandwiches, carrots and crackers for a trip to the zoo. While everyone else had grilled burgers or hot dogs, I had a nice, healthy lunch. I did share about 6 of Sophie's yummy fries. Before, I would not have missed out on greasy, "out for a meal" food. No way would I pack my only lunch! I lived for going out. But now, I am no longer living to eat!!