Friday, July 2, 2010

Willpower?

So, I keep getting lots of comments and compliments on my willpower. Now, I will say in the first few months, it did take some willpower. And even now occasionally I will get frustrated and cry because I want to eat something and know I can't. But that's the thing. I know I can't. It is not worth it to me points wise. But I don't know if it is really willpower. It's just that after a while, my thinking changes. In this instant, having a borderline obsessive personality works to my advantage. I am obsessed with my points. I am obsessed with losing weight. Also, the fact that I am doing Weight Watchers and can still eat pretty much anything, helps a lot. It's funny, because I get comments like, oh you aren't eating cake. Umm, yeah I am. Not very often, and it better be really good cake to use my points on. And it depends on where I am in my week, etc. But if I know I am going to a party with cake or something else I want to eat, I plan for it. I am all about planning. Not just on WW. My hubby will tell you, every day off he has ever had while we have been together, I ask, "what is the plan?" He never has one. Anyway, I am on a mission, one I know I have to be on for the rest of my life to be healthy, so that is my motivation.

I also get comments from others about being a bad influence if they are eating something they deem as bad. Like a fatty like me can't control herself in the presence of fattening food. But I have never been one to be influenced by other people. I never got the drinking thing, for example. Just because others are drinking, that doesn't make me want to drink. I will sometimes have a drink, like my Cinco de Mayo Margarita. I very much have my own mind. Where I have to be careful is, some people do need that reassurance. Like, when you go shopping with someone and they pull everything they like out and say "isn't this cute?" And it isn't, to me. Sometimes I smile and nod. Sometimes, depending on who it is, I make a face, or say it would be cute on you. And then they put it back. Why? If you like it, it doesn't matter that someone else doesn't. This is why doing WW online works for me. I like to do my own thing. Some people say they need to go to the meetings and have other people look at them disapprovingly. That would not help me. And I do not need to sit in meetings with size 4 women whining about needing to lose 5 pounds. My point is, you can take me to the Cheesecake factory and order a big ass piece of cheesecake, and that isn't going to "ruin my diet". Unless I planned for it. But I'm not sure even my beloved cheesecake is points worthy. :-)

1 comment:

  1. You do have such amazing willpower. I know it's habit by now, but the rest of us would love to get in that habit. Oh how I struggle, but you are a great inspiration that show me hard work pays off!

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