I was a normal weight as a child, and started gaining during puberty. In the 7th grade, I was 78 pounds. By the tenth I was in the 140's, and by the time I graduated high school, I was around 180. After that, I didn't weigh myself for a long time.
Why?? Why does a person become obese? Why would anyone let themselves get to 260+ pounds. For me, I know the reasons are many. But the fact is, for whatever reason, I wanted to be. Because if I really didn't, I wouldn't be. Yes, there are contributing factors, physical and mental. But the filthy truth is, I didn't want to deal with it, so for many years I didn't. Yes, there was some up's and down's on the scale. But to really attack the problem and deal with it? I did it once, in the mid 90's. I got under 200 pounds for a very brief amount of time. Then I settled in, and started creeping back up.
Equal to the many reasons I was obese in the first place, are the amount of reasons that I started Weight Watchers and started losing. The nitty gritty? I wanted to live a healthier, longer, and richer life than I was living. It has already gotten better! And at the same time, it is scaring the crap out of me. Because I am slowly coming out of hiding. Even though I have been here all along...
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