Holiday gain

Wow, I have been a terrible blogger! I gained one pound over the holidays. I am hoping for a small loss this week. I found this year to be the most stressful Christmas season in a very long time. It was so hard working and trying to fit everything in. I didn't want to miss out on any celebrating, and I didn't want Sophie to miss out either. Chet and I went from the Sunday before Thanksgiving to Christmas without a day off together. So we never got to make our family trip to downtown Seattle. And work itself was very stressful. I am still trying to get used to the job itself, plus being away from Sophie. When I think about it, I cry. The two years I didn't work were like a vacation to me. I know everyone has their own view on this, but to me, it was a vacation. Yes, it was hard work, and sometimes depressing. But I still have all the work I had before. What I am missing out on is all the fun time I had with Sophie. A lot of my mom friends just don't get it. There is so much complaining about how hard it is to be a stay at home mom. So, try adding a full time job to that, and tell me how much easier it is! I realize some moms rather work, some do it by choice, some want to work but stay home, not fully by choice. I want to stay home. Getting to do it for a short time was a huge blessing to me. I just wish I could still be home.

So, I did splurge more than I have since I started the program in the weeks around Christmas. I just did not care. I didn't go totally off program. I did track, and stay within my weekly and activity points. But, I felt I deserved to splurge. I did go back a little to my old pattern of comforting myself with food. But knowing how I deal with stress, really that was the best I could do. And a one pound gain after losing nine in the previous month wasn't too bad.

In this new year of 2011, not only do I want to reach my big goal of 100 lost and the normal weight range, but I want to lose about 20 on top of that. So when we reach 2012, I will be happy to be around 135. I really want to be a size 8, but I don't know what weight will get me there. Or if I can get there without some corrective surgery. I sure will be happy to be "normal" though!